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Saturday, May 27, 2006Y

haha..

so bored 2day sia..

juz finished business finance n accounting ICA..

die le lah..

haiz..

confirm fail de..

oso dunno whether can sucessfully proceed 2 yr 3 sia..

haiz..

how??

hu can help me sia..

how come those questions asked is not in e tutorials n lectures de..

wa lau..

saw e paper tt tym stunned tio sia..

zzz..

how??????????

ICT project oso no hope le..

do e qn wrongly..

tt tutor stil keep sayin:

"no..u're doin it total opposite.."

"its wrong.."

"i hav 2 minus marks accordingly.."

haiz..

i hav 2 say sorry 2 my grp members sia..

im realli realli very sorry sia..

coz tt qn is i do de..

sweat*

dis yr so damn tough nor..

biz law so chim..

so diff 2 differenciate civil law n criminal..

wad breach of contract..

i mean..

we r not lawyaers rite??

whew~

wadever loh..

now loads projects cuming up sia..

nxt wk onwards muz prepare 4 presentations le..

aiyo..

so many tings 2 do sia..

but rite now..

muz slack..

yet..

so damn sian loh..

sleepin almost whole day at home sia..

k bah..

blog again soon..

bye~

ends at 5:21 PM

Monday, May 22, 2006Y

haha..

yesterday..20/05/06

went 2 see 5566!!!

shan ask me join her go..

so i went wif her 2 indoor stadium 2 see them..

well, actually it supposed 2 be a company's prize award ceremony tingy..

den tt company invited 5566 2 perform, n taufic n billy wong..

turn out 56 is the one hu brighten my day..

taufic onli sing 3 songs nia..

billy wong sing bout 4 songs..

56 sing as many as 7 songs bah..

cool man..

lyk their concert lyk tt..

was supposed 2 meet shan n her fren at 4.45 de..

den she changed 2 5pm..

sia lah..

i reached there at 5.10 lyk tt nor..

actually tot late de..

but den was earlier den them nor..

den when they arrived..

we walked 2wards indoor stadium.

when arrived there..

whoa..

so many ppl sia..

such loooooong queue loh..

we frm north entrance de..

den queue all e way 2 e end of south entrance sia..

ppl frm as young as lil kids..

to as OLD as sitting wheelchair turn up loh..

shocking sia..

all come coz free sitting bah?

so anyway..

e tings supposingly start at 6pm de..

but den turn up 7pm we stil queueing lah!

damn it man..

den finally moved n went in..

played cheat n found seats in front..

coz we're supposed 2 hav free sitting in e 2nd lvl de..

haha..

overall..

it was realli fun lah..

realli enjoyed the show..

but den..

ren fu lyk very sad loh..

mayb coz his mum in hospital den he cant go accompany her bah..

1st time ever see ren fu so quiet while xie zhi so damn noisy lah..

all he talk de..

but den ok lah..

coz get 2 listen so many songs they seldom sing de..

erm..

4got le..

haha..

main point is..

they sing lotsa songs can le lah..

haha..

yup!

lets tok bout 2day..21/05/06

last nite cant realli slp so chatted wif sis..

chat until day light sia..

den slp loh..

woke up n went out wif my family 2 clementi..

coz there got pasar malam..

bro love 2 eat tt smelly shitty beancurd lah!!

so damn smelly loh..

almost vomitted sia..

den bought a few tings loh..

haha..

bought new shoes..

cute beige color de..

a shorts tt can wear on both sides de..

n ate loads of stuff lah..

crap..

in e end kena diahrroea..

sux lah..

but after awhile ok le..

Yup..

tts about all loh..

my weekends quite happy lah..

haha..

kk gtg le..

those i missed out..

if i can remember..

i'll write down again nxt tym..

gtg..

bye~

ends at 12:05 AM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006Y

national education..

well well..

wad can i say??

national education klas is so..

sianz..

haha..

talk bout national service..

serving the country..

guys in army..

having physical training..

fitness..

blah blah blah..

i mean..

tot all these will b taught 2 guys?

they will noe it when tym cum mah..

although girls oso got take part in ns de..

but den..

4 girls lyk me..

do u seriously tink i will even care wad men do in e army?

funny sia..

realli funny loh..

but den..

the skit presented is quite funny lah..

the onli part i enjoyed abt..

so anyway..

as i was saying..

yah..

every wed have NE klass..

but not very often hav de..

onli come 4 bout 2 seminars nia..

den dun nid le..

so every wed free..

haha..

no sch..

kk..

change topic..

hmm..

aftr tt went J8 wif jess, xue n yiyi..

haha..

shopped arnd..

saw shao liang n his gf..

dating..

haha..

b4 we went J8..

saw my freshies while on e way 2 mrt..

haha..

miss them so much..

ahem..

haha..

nvm..

yah den took neoprints..

whoa..

its been ages..

since i last took neoprints le..

so den aftr tt..

walked 4 awhile den yiyi n jess hav 2 leave earlier..

so went eat yoshinoya wif xue..

talked alot..

talked bout how i sometimes hate n dislike myself..

i mean..

its not tt i ususlly judge myself..

but den..

sometimes u cant help it..

but dislike ur ownself..

haha..

talked bout how lonely i am..

not tt i wan 2 stick 2 guys tt much..

realli afraid tt other girls will hate me..

coz i onli hang arnd guys in sch..

but den..

nobody understands me..

its coz im realli lonely..

no frens or cliques 2 join in..

haiz..

wadever lah..

wan hate me den hate me loh..

i heck care le lah..

since i alrdy been hurt more den once le..

been hurt again..

wu suo wei loh..

haiz..

yup..

guess i can onli hang on..

while in my 2 yrs in poly..

wif no close frens in my klas..

n all so lonely..

xue ask me find 1 clique..

if not find 1 bf..

as if say i wan den can get le..

pls nor..

haiz..

k bah..

signing off le..

bye~

ends at 9:45 PM

Sunday, May 14, 2006Y

erm...

2day..

woke up arnd 2 plus in e afternoon..

cant help it..

went ktv last nite until 3am plus..

by the time i settled down at home..

bathe finish n stuff..

its arnd 5am plus..

tink bout loads of tings when i at my bed..

b4 i could even realise..

i heard crow cries wor..

6am plus le..

den finally slp..

so tts y woke up damn late 2day..

but den..

haha..

excuses..

everyday oso woke up arnd in the aftn..

haiz..

am a sleepyhead sia..

went online 4 awhile when louis called me..

so went town wif him aftr tt..

went 2 eat at a chicken rice stall at far east..

louis's recommendation..

but i did not eat a lot..

haha..

aftr tt shopped arnd..

den frm far east walk 2 taka..

on e way..

met so many survey ppl sia..

keep tinking we r a couple..

told them we r onli gd frens..

one particular person stil say..

"couples start frm gd frens.."

crap*

wad the..

haiz..

louis so poor thing loh..

tink his gf wil b sad when she hear dis..

or mayb not bah..

if she's an understanding person..

haha..

HELLO!!

ppl n his gf very sweet de wor..

kk..

so anyway..

went 2 taka coz louis said wan treat me ice-cream..

haha..

den..

saw YJ loh..

so coincedence sia..

he workin there nor..

i didnt see him at 1st..

but he waved 2 me..

so chat 4 a while..

den ordered tiramisu flavor..

haha..

he oso tot we..

haha..

main highlight is..

coz we noe each other..

YJ gave us big scoops loh..

realli gave a BIG scoop wor..

den he told me 2 go at the end 2 pay money..

coz cannot let ppl see mah..

special treatment..

sweets*

he so nice nor..

so den aftr tt..

walked 2wards cine..

went there check out wad movies 2 watch..

but all lyk full sia..

so decided 2 go ps check out..

ps oso full le so walked back 2wards cine..

pei louis eat again den decided 2 go home..

but den..

saw melissa outside the door sia..

2nd tym met her at cine when wif louis..

wahaha..

tink nxt tym louis muz write..

[i got gf]..

n paste at his forehead!!

haha..

chat wif melissa 4 a while den go home le..

my bus come so long sia..

coz we got tings 2 tell each other so louis wait 4 my bus 2 come..

haiz..

talking bout tings i dun wanna tink anymore..

reached home in tym 2 catch liverpool's match wif West Ham..

woohoo..

Liverpool won the FA cup in e end..

yay..

haha..

thx 2 STEVEN GERRAD..

man of the match..

been thinking it thru le..

tink i wont be bordered wif tt person* anymore le..

although feelin a bit unbearable..

but..

guess..

its realli time i shud let it go..

Liverpool won...

won FA CUP..

haha..

so happy sia..

liverpool rawks..

hmm..

kk..

crap loads le..

hehe..

signing off le..

bye~

ends at 1:34 AM

Thursday, May 11, 2006Y

10-05-2006

Finally clear..
of how u feel towards me..
haha..
i can onli think of e sweet times..
u gave 2 me in the past..
i do treasure those moments..
thank you 4 once liking me..
and thx 4 tellin me now..
tt..
its realli over 4 us..
the truth hurts though..
sad tt we cant possibly be as close again..
or mayb wont..
mayb we'll stil remain as frens..
haha..
crap..
at least..
i dun hav 2 wait anymore..
actually hoped dun wan see u in sch at all..
but saw you eventually..
damn it..
it hurts..
haha~
have 2 pretend nth happened..
still ur ogl..
and a normal fren..
and..
nth else..
haiz..
haha..
okay..
2day went out wif oo6 gang..
except for jess..
was at jap klas wif ah wen..
den go orchard find e rest..
went walked arnd..
actually decided 2 watch movie..
but yiyi n ju cant make it too late..
so..
shopped around..
ate ramen ten at far east..
not bad..
mine so nice..
yum~
den..
pei xue look 4 her make up tingy..
cant find wad she wan at town area..
so went toa payoh arnd 7pm..
wif onli me, xue n ah wen..
after we bid farewell wif e rest..
bought a shirt again..
den slightly walked arnd tpy..
there got pasar malam..
Haha..
but we didnt go there..
so..
after a while..
went back after tt..
haiz..
to all my frens..
im realli sorry if i've caused u all 2 worry..
haha..
coz im havin stress wif erm..
someone..
but now..
we've finally made it clear le..
wel..
not quite clear oso lah..
but at least..
i dun hav 2 wait le..
Haha~
haiz..
im still alone..
again..
but den..
at least finished most of e projects le..
whew~!
and..
ang qing xiang..
yah i noe u read my blog..
thx 4 reading..
but..
i realli dunno y u always comment on my font color sia..
Haha..
i heck care u liao loh..
will put pink bah..
k bah..
blog anthr day..

bye~

ends at 10:36 PM

Wednesday, May 10, 2006Y

went kbox 2day..
yay..
finally have enuff voice 2 sing le..
Haha..
lost my voice past few days..
sick so long le..
but have dis feelin im recovering soon..
haiz..
was supposed 2 meet xue, yiyi, wen, jess..they all at 11.45am at tpy de..
but i reached arnd 12 plus, i tink..
im realli sorry..
i overslept..
so they start off wifout me 1st..
kaoz..
dunno wads wrong wif me sia..
always havin problems wif meeting ppl on tym..
wth..
can someone install a time chip in my brain??
im lyk so..
pissed off wif myself loh..
anyway..
went bugis wif yiyi n wen aftr kbox 2 shop..
sianz..
xue hav 2 go her fren's hous do project..
jess have 2 go home early..
crap loh..
so diff 2 meet out de..
see how 2ml bah..
all alone in crm..
seperated frm my gang..
my life is so miserable wifout them sia..
nobody 2 remind me bring admin card..
nobody there 2 help me keep track of sch schedule..
nobody there 2 remind me bring jacket..
nobody discuss wif me tutorials..
nobody 2 sit wif during ICT klas..
OH MY GOD..
im so sad..
wad 2 do??
its realli unfair loh..
y i always diff frm my frens de..
since pri sch to sec sch..
seldom tio same as my frens de..
facing so many probs..
yet i always have 2 put up a happy front..
actually met someone..
hu realli brightened my day..
but it was onli 4 a moment..
rite now i dunno wads the prob..
my day has gone back to haze..
haiz..
yet still have 2 pretend im cheerful..
if onli he noes how i feel..

somehow i feel..

everybody's changing..

mayb some dun realise..

some may feel happy..

but i dun realli do..

am always the happy go lucky in the grp..

but no longer is..

i realli cannot help but feel lonely..

mayb im the one hus changed..

for the worse??

not sure..

even eewen says im a flirt..

seriously am i??

im juz trying 2 b friendly..

well..i guess..

realli..

its not tt i tink too much...

juz tt tings were much sweeter in the past..

can anyone realli understand how i feel?

i can no longer be a happy apple anymore..

im lyk a nobody now..

havin so many problems..

i realli dunno whether i can handle it..

i wanna cry..

but i can't..

mayb because you all hav ur own problems too..

tts y u all failed 2 see others..

im not trying 2 gain attention or wadever..

im not being desperate..

i juz..

feel so lonely..

which i dunno why..?

going out wif my frens dun realli help much..

coz nowadays..

all so busy..

i cannot bear 2 force them oso..

but den again..

...

....

......

i noe my frens care..

den again..
some things r beyond wad u all tink it is..
but i realli appreciate ur concerns though..
i guess..
i will always remain stagnant..
wadever the crap lah..
wish all those hu somewad feels the same as me..
best of luck..
coz..
there's someone here lyk u oso..
haha..
gtg..
bye~

ends at 9:41 PM

Tuesday, May 09, 2006Y

Fierce year ahead..

im damn stress loh..

haha..

how many times have i said tt??

but realli loh..

yr 2 in poly..

so tough sia..

dunno bout othr schs..

NYP is so tough..

mayb some can handle stress..

so they feel nth..

but im practically mentally n physically drained loh..

fever came up again..

the cough never goes away..

keep staying on..

wad the crap sia..

anyway..

im lyk so proud of myself..

done 1 essay n 2 projects within 24hrs..

last nite realli testing my mental strength loh..

do project until late 2am plus.. nearly 3am..

den was shagged n hungry..

so mum brought me 2 eat supper at the hawker downstairs my hous..

coz my lappy got probs wif ms office..

the ting keeps hanging..

fed up..

tts y went 2 my uncle's hous 2 do..

borrow his com..

though speed slow but thx 2 it..

it saved me..

and..

nosebleed last nite..

freak me out loh..

fortunately i onli hav 2 press on my nose 4 a while..

not tt bloody though..

also..

damn pissed off with some ppl..

but matters resolved..

god..

realli impressed wif myself sia..

woke up early 2day morning arnd 9.30am plus..

sum up all e project stuff n den send it 2 my grp ppl..

whoa..

at least free frm some load..

but..

now hav 2 worry abt anthr thing..

the individual project..

marketing mgmt project..

INDIVIDUAL PROJECT..!

u noe wad tt means??

it means hav 2 do it ALONE..

n i realli nid help..

gosh*

n its due nxt wk..

sigh*

will most probably touch on it 2ml..

its enuff 4 me 2day..

last nite so siong..

2day..

plan 2 rest..

n i realli mean havin a gd rest..

will go slp later..

den wake up arnd afrn n see how tings go..

whew..

at least 2day no sch..

wed oso no sch..

thurs have but fri dun hav..

coz fri Vesak day..

fortunately can rest..

haha..

saw Jer yesterday..

he seem alrite le..

no longer gloomy n sad looking..

at least we managed 2 sms each other..

but sad though..

its juz sad..

poor thing sia..

he sick 4 so long..

haiz..

tts his problem, i guess..

dun wanna talk bout it le..

lyk i said, everything nice n sweet..

will turn back into reality one day..

guess theres no point 4 me 2 do anything..

waiting?? guess nt..

haiz..

crap a lot 2day sia..

oh..

nvm..

FOR THOSE SICK PPL..

TAKE GOOD CARE OF URSELF..

rest well..

u all realli deserve a gd rest..

hugs..

signing off..

bye~~

ends at 11:40 AM

Saturday, May 06, 2006Y

haiz..
what a day 2 spend my leisure time..
was feelin so stressed..
wanna go out..
but onli went out 4 a while nia..
keep finding ppl 2 pei me..
but nobody is free..
den alone in orchard..
alone listening 2 music in HMV..
wan 2 buy a certain cd but found another cd i lyk..
den dunno which 2 buy..
in e end..
stil decide 2 but tt certain cd i lyk 4 quite some time..
supposed 2 meet yiyi at 11.30am..
but i overslept..
haha..
forever me..
forever late..
never early..
den in the end meet yiyi arnd 12.30pm..
jess came along as well..
but at 1plus they hav 2 go back 2 work le..
so became alone..
haiz..
tried finding ppl..
but they all so far away frm orchard..
so bo bian..
after loitering arnd at orachard..
took bus go tiong bahru plaza shop alone..
Haha..
used 2 it le..
den buy some hair care stuff..
gd recommendation frm frens..
den went back hoe le..
haiz..
sianz..
now tinking of wad 2 do for e stupid NE essay..
shit man..
muz oso do research on dunno wad project..
all due on tues sia..
sianz..
damn fever keep coming and go..
wa lau sia..
tt cough make me no appetite 2 eat..
wa..
everyday eat onli abt 1 meal sia..
haiz..
signing off le..
bye~~

ends at 5:03 PM

Friday, May 05, 2006Y

i tot i could handle such a situation..

it seems 2 me everything is realli juz a dream..

it started off nice n sweet..

yet it has gone down 2 a silent break..

mayb im tinking too much..

but..

u're making me feel so miserable..

tink u dun even noe..

feelin so stressed rite now..

there's so many tings 2 do in sch oso..

projects n stuff..

presentations n tutorials..

n coz i hav so many activities 2 do, i've missed so many tutorials n lects..

plus i hav this irritating cough n on-off fever..

time is running so fast..

i couldnt catch up..

haiz..

no matter how sweet things can get..

it wil turn back 2 normal one day..

funny how YOU realli brighten up my life 4 a moment..

yet u r the one makin me feel so miserable in the end..

the miserable feelin of waiting..

......

i tink..

i hav a fren of a similar situation..

stil waiting 4 an answer to tt relationship..

i noe how she feels now..

coz im feelin the same..

i do cherish tt moment..

but den now its tym 2 wake up..

can someone tel me wad 2 do..

can someone tel me wats next?!

can someone recommend me a gd medicine 4 cough??

i'll try 2 take it easy..

though its nvr easy..

silly me..

y shud i b sad??

when we haven even realli started..

haha..

okay..

those hu noe wad im sayin..

pls juz keep it 2 urself..

pls dun go find trouble..

4 him..

n 4 me..

coz its not his fault..

realli thanks 4 tt..

damn irritating cough..

makin me no appetite 2 eat at all..

okay..

whew..

feelin more relaxed..

i've said a lot..

got to go..

signing off..

.......

...

ends at 8:43 PM