A sad sad sad day...
25th October 2006, Wednesday~
hey hey...
2day supposed 2 go running de...
but looking out the window now..
dark clouds..
grey skies..
heavy wind blow..
so i conclude..
shud be no running le...
haiz.
sadded..
coz 2day Jerene and Lynette supposed 2 join us de..
shud be more fun de..
but den..
kena dis kinda weather..
actually the weather now realli reflects my feeling oso..
recently got many troubles sia..
dunno where 2 start..
but i shud apologise..
coz u all shud noe my character de..
once i bu shuang..
i show it all out..
whenever i not happy..
i had 2 voice out..
haiz..
i noe now many ppl sure bu shuang me..
i admit its my fault..
so i tink i dun realli deserve ur friendship..
okay..
im a little emo rite now..
i juz cant help it feelin lyk tt nor..
everyone and everything seems 2 change over time..
im stressed over so many tings..
how i wish i'll be left alone 4 some time..
no nid 2 go school..
no nid 2 do stupid ppt and reports..
no proposals 2 rush..
and when im alone..
nobody will get hurt..
because there will be nobody for me 2 upset..
haiz...
damn my wrecked life..
i feel im not a good person..
i wil onli cause hurt 2 ppl..
will onli give troubles..
although i dun lyk ppl callin me short..
but i bear wif it..
and till noe..
im lyk used 2 it le..
haha..
i tink i cant be a happy apple too long..
im gonna rot..
and im rotting rite now..
as in realli rotting..
for good...
haiz...
sad me..
i missed my bed..
i missed my mum..
i missed being a little girl..
how i wish 4 someone 2 shout to..
i wanna find someone 2 shout in2 tt person's ear..
and realli shout out damn loud..
get lost bad feelings!!!
dun upset me anymore..!!!
shall blog again nxt tym..
gtg~
take care my frens..
dun get sick...
ends at 5:20 PM