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Saturday, April 28, 2007Y

haiz..

i feel so unappreciated..

for the past few months..

i onli did wad i feel tt will make ppl feel they r appreciated..

tt they are loved by me..

tt i will nvr forget them..

but i guess its uneccessary already..

am i even important??

am i even needed??

i tink even if im not around..

nobody will say anything..

probably onli my parents..

even my sis says sarcastic tings abt me..

hate it when she realli hurts my heart..

haiz~

ppl come in2 my life n go out..

im very tired trying to be normal already..

even im not in the thank-you list 4 certain someone..

when i actually giv so many comments..

those tt seldom giv comments oso inside the thank-u list of tt someone!

it juz gave a prick in my heart..

can anyone juz gave me a knife?

im feeling giddy now..

i feel lyk vommiting..

and i dunno y..

juz when im feelin sad, i feel sick..

lyk wth~

even now, i dun even feel lyk havin anything 2 do wif my blog anymore..

prob i shud juz abandon it suan le..

den nobody will noe wads happening 2 me..

and when im left alone..

i will not hurt anybody anymore..

and i will not feel hurt anymore..

life is so tough on me!

well, gtg~

bye~

ends at 3:06 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007Y

woohoo~

counting down..

last 2 days b4 i ending my work..

school's starting..

talk abit about work 2day..

2day was quite a hard day 4 us..

coz the weather is damn hot lor..

den every morning we hav 2 reach early 2 set up..

den when its the lil kids' recess..

its lyk war..

2day we hav 2 rush thru our breaktime..

coz this sch has so many recess..

we chiong all e way until 12pm den got tym 2 eat..

whew~

some kids as usual v enthu..

keep askin e same qn again n again..

guess all kids are lyk tt..

we were once lyk tt too rite?!

kk, den hate it whenever its closing time..

have 2 pack pack pack..

been touchin boxes, packing, bending down den standing up these while..

tough job..

but when i tink of the comission aftr sales..

at least stil got more drive 2 continue..

in any case, its gd experience n training..

looking 4ward 2 nxt 2 days..

coz aftr tt sch starts le..

den can see all my darlings again..

haha~

oh yah, hopefully 2ml can go out..

stil waiting 4 yiyi n xue 2 discuss..

hopefully can all go out 2gthr..

kk, shall blog again nxt tym..

damn tired le..

gtg~

ends at 12:19 AM

Monday, April 23, 2007Y

whew~

there are alot of tings in my heart rite now..

i dunno why either..

i nid 2 work again 2ml..

its anitcipation plus a little dread..

its gd tt i can work and earn money..

but i dread doing tings and havin 2 work..

haha..

this question is often in my mind rite now..

"where do i wanna work aftr i graduate?"

the ting is..

i dun even noe wad i wanna work as..

haiz..

if onli i can lead a very simple life..

i realli tink tt life in Spore is too fast paced le..

sometimes, it makes me hard 2 breathe..

i dunno..

but but, i dun even noe how i wanna lead my life in future..

oh well, probably let nature takes its course??

haiz..

hopefully, 2ml will be a better day..

kk, gtg~

bye~

ends at 8:41 PM

Friday, April 20, 2007Y

damn tired...........

came back frm work not long ago..

worked 4 onli 4 days but im damn shagged liao..

and working is tough!!

although my customers are little kids..

and although i love kids..

they sure are noisy..

some realli can ask u the same qn many many times..

whew~

but at least our sales are not too bad..

so commission shud be quite high oso bah..

wahaha~

satisfaction garunteed..

ok ok..

get 2 mit a few new frens..

already started 2 work wif some of them..

oh and will be working wif another Charlene..

haha, charlene chan..

hmm...

dunno whether tt day how the supervisors gonna call us..

and if so, tink both of us will reply..

juz tinking of it sounds interesting..

anw anw, im damn shagged rite now..

wanna go slp le..

but b4 i do, shall watch a video first den go take nap..

kk..

ciaoz~

ends at 7:36 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007Y

hmm..

i suddenly got the urge to blog..

it will be a damn damn long blog..

read on if ure a real fren..

its been quite some time since i last have dis kinda feelings le..

it seems lyk, i juz blog 4 the sake of blogging the past few days..

but of coz, i noe tts not true bah..

anw anw..

i so envy SHINHWA..

not forgetting i LOVE them..

saw this video on youtube..

whereby they are blindfolded and brought into a concert hall..

they didnt have any idea how many ppl will turn up since it shud have 10000 seatings..

and b4 they could remove their blindfolds..

they each said their inner-most feelings and thoughts about one another..

seeing wad they do is easy..

everyone can tink likewise..

but how easy can it get when u realli cherish ur frenship and wanna so much 2 tell them tt?

worse still..

u've been so busy and u neglected those words 2 say..

but still..

they've known each other 4 10 yrs..

they have been 2gthr 4 10 yrs..

they had their dance practice 2gthr..

eat 2gthr..

sleep 2gthr while having an event..

and they are so busy tt..

now eveything bolted down to their hearts and they cant wait 2 tell the rest..

of how they feel..

how they love one another..

how they cherish everything tt they had..

my throat gets a lil stuffy..

and im getting emo again when i saw this video lor..

i realised i took so many tings 4 granted as well..

and i realise juz how lucky i am..

i read about how friendship mean so much when u noe ur family needed help..

although recently i met some financial crisis..

there are ppl hu stil joked but stil i feel tt its coz they care..

im realli thankful for tt..

it will be a long entry 2day!!

here goes..

i wanna thank: (not in order of any ranking..)

006-Xueli:
thx so much my dear fren..

i noe i once made a mistake and u were all mad at me..

but despite tt, u all stil celebrate my bday!!

we quarrelled many tyms but tts not important..

coz ure lyk my dearest fren in nyp, someone tt i will nvr 4get..

thx for everything and 4 always being the one hu lift up e atmosphere..

Jess:

thx so much for the wonderful times u gave..

i once hurt u b4 wif my words and i so so regret abt it..

thx for always being the "peace-maker" when any 2 of us tend 2 argue..

ure always tinking for others and hardly threw any temper..

althogh abit sarcarstic at times but tts okay..

coz, ure always one tt i will remember in NYP.. thx..

Huiyi:

i realli gotta thank you so much 4 everything..

there are so many things tt happened..

but u always willing 2 listen n r always the middle-men..

i noe its tough being one, but im realli thankful i had you!!

thx so much for understanding me all this while.. thx alot..

Melissa(Lee):

surprised ur name's here??

i realli wanna say "wad would i do w/o u??"..

thx 4 listening 2 all my complaints..

thx for all the wondeful stories..

Never will i 4get u.. and realli thx for those times u accompanied..

despite being busy, u stil pick time 4 me 2 chill wif me..

thx alot alot..

Shan2:

hey girl.. im so thankful tt u nvr 4gotten me all along..

im sorry tt recently i did not hav e tym 2 go out wif u n ting..

nonetheless, ure a gd fren which i would not wan 2 4get..

i'll always remember the girl hus ever so crazy wif idols along wif me..

im realli sorry if u feel neglected.. but ure nvr 4gotten..

i will always cherish the times we watched movies late at night..
i will nvr 4get all ur company..
thx so much my dear..

Ting:

Firstly, i wanna say thx so much 4 being super nice n understanding..

im so sorry coz i stood u all an keep u all always waiting 4 me..

and i juz so hate myself 4 being dumb n brainless..

but still, u all nvr once gave up on me or blamed me..

thx for always remembering my birthday..

juz dis is enuff..

thx for always being there whenever i had any complains..

thx for always partnering in sec 3 n 4..

i would go mad w/o u back then..

i really really appreciate and thankful loads!!

Eewen:

Although recently didnt talk much..

but u're always remembered..

thx 4 listening me talk crap and letting me sing as much as i want..

thx for the understanding at tyms tt u gave.. thx..

Julie:

I dunno if u'll see this..

but a big THANK YOU for being lyk the "older sister" in e grp..

ure always so nice n smiling.. thx 4 all tt..

Jingyi:

How can i ever forget you??

thx for all the funny stuff tt always do..

thx 4 all the HK dramas tt helped me pass tym in BSU..

thx for always being there when i needed u..

and finally, im so thankful tt..

I FOUND YOU in NYP..

thx alot alot..

Wanyi(Mummy):

how lucky can i get 2 noe such a pretty and nice fren? thx for teachin us bake cookies..

thx for being realli nice n acknowledge us 5 baos.. realli thankful for ur gracefulness.. thx so much..

Melody:

Ure always on my mind these time ure in Japan..

coz ure1 that i will never never 4get..

at AES, ure the one hu "found" me..

and get me 2 become a lively person, hu i am 2day..

even though at times, ure so sacarstic and irritating..

ure always fun 2 be wif..

i will never 4get the tings we do in sec 1 to sec 4 prom..

tt, whenever u nid help, i oso be here, always..

thx so much for the wonderful memories.. thx big time..

OTHERS:

im so sorry tt i didnt put in certain names tt i shud..

i still love u all tt much..

if i have the time, i put in every name i remember..

coz im working 2ml..

so yeah..

for some guys portion;

Alvin- thx for ur advices on projects and tests.. and thx for listening me whine on msn.. thx oso for the lame stuff u always gave me.. thx for being lyk a brother 2 me n helping as much as u can.. thx alot=)

Cheng De(ah gong)- thx for being so nice 2 me!! realli very nice can!! im proud to have u as a fren..

QX- surprised ur name here?? In e past i used 2 call u n talk awhile.. im realli happy 2 have u as a fren.. and thx 4 always ready 2 lend help in my sch stuff.. u have to be strong too ok? i will always be here if u nid a fren's help!!

Jinfu- eh eh.. muz be realli silly 2 add ur name here, but i juz gotta spread ur name larh! so famous for being a Crapper.. thx anw..

Rong ci- dunno if u'll see this.. but if u do, thx 4 all the jokes.. and ure lyk a responsible yet funny guy i met.. thx so much 4 being a fren too..

once again.. to all those tt i 4get.. coz my mind is so packed wif words 2 say..

i cant realli recall anymore names.. the fact still remains.. those tt read until this far.. muz be realli long rite?? im sorry.. but u guys cat imagine how much gallons of tears i cried while typing.. seriously, admit if ure touched too lah..

haha, can go act 1 ltr of tears liao.. siao, not so serious lah.. kk, gtg le..

I have a final word 2 say..

I LOVE YOU ALL..

nite!

Labels: tributes to friendship..

ends at 12:07 AM

Monday, April 16, 2007Y

As many ppl realise..

my hp cant use 4 these few days..

i "appreciate" the "special" loans frm the ppl at my tag board yar!

thx ar..

-lame-

anw anw..

went 2 chinatown 2 shop wif xueli, jess n yiyi..

its been so long since i went out wif them..

had loads fun 2day..

haha..

went 2 dis special "custom-made" accessories on-the-spot shop..

had fun helping yiyi n xue 2 choose their items 4 their necklace..

in e end..

I love jess's de..

simply yet classy sia..

of coz..

i oso lyk xue's de 4 being v pinky n cute..

den yiyi's one is balck as main theme..

suitable 4 v punk gal lyk her..

mine ar??

abit simple..

in fact the most simple de..

haha..

coz i dun realli lyk many tings..

simplicity is beautiful..

kk..

den went walk walk arnd chinatown..

finally den went chinatown point to eat at Mac..

we chatted so much on mummy's upcoming bday party at Aug..

haha..

xueli so high can!

den both of us ally 2 challenge out competitor-yiyi..

onli we noe wad we tokin abt..

so wanna noe den ask me or them bah..

if not can keep on guessing..

aftr tt wet home le..

woohoo~

had fun 2day..

mum n dad going 2 7eleven 2 pay for my bills now!!

hooray~

kk, 2ml got product training..

hopefully can do well..

ciaoz~

ends at 12:11 AM

Friday, April 13, 2007Y

whew~

had fun during the 2 days of orientation..

partly coz my 'eye candy' was there..

haha~

met my class at the auditorium on the first day..

den they attended talks and so on..

before we brought them outside north canteen to have their lunch..

at first they are so so quiet can..

they dun realli respond much..

so i made them remember their names..

played the murderer game..

the day finally ended at 6 plus lyk tt..

and im realli sorry to those i promised u'll be released real soon!

2nd day of orientation..

Jinfu came n disturb again sia..

he 4ever so free de..

anw anw..

had water games mostly in the morning..

the sun is damn hot can..

but my class improved a lil..

there are stil some realli enthu ones..

Oh, and i told some of them hu my 'eye candy' was..

and some acknoledge he's cute lor..

wahaha~

and my poor freshie cut his foot..

hu ask u so suay..

haha..

kk, den lunch tym..

told them cold jokes and stuff..

hopefully can keep the atmosphere a lil "high"

den aftr tt is team building games..

not too bad..

mostly at sports hall, so quite cooling..

aftr those games ended..

grand finale~

its the finale for mr n ms freshie..

actually i was at the back wif e othr ogls..

but thx to Darryn hu keeps suaning me..

and keep getting noiser n noiser, i went 2 join my class..

den my class say i lyk anti-social..

pls lor, they keep suaning me..

aiyo..

haha..

had fun chatting wif those peeps..

aftr the whole ting ended..

at least some stil stayed back..

i dun care wadever reason..

but stil u all were stil there and haven disappear lyk tt..

so yup..

exchanged contacts..

and YOU so juai can?!

YOU noe hu u are lah yar..

VIP seh.. hehe..

i dun wanna mention names..

well, if u ever see my blog tt is..

debrief, took pictures, chatted awhile..

den den..

went 2 meet mum 2 go home aftr tt..

Arghhhhhhhhhhhh..

cant use my hp these few days..

coz bill haven pay..

but stil can call me..

haiz.. but i cant call/ reply any of ur messages..

pls understand..

kk, tts all..

ciaoz~

ends at 4:18 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007Y

已经两天都睡不着了。。

奇怪，为什么会这样呢？？

我可是一个哭过笑过后还是可以继续睡觉的人哦。。

但就是不知道啦！！

真希望可以回到以前呀。。。

算了。。

走了。。

ends at 2:08 AM

Thursday, April 05, 2007Y

haiz.............................

im so sianz........................................

who can help me??!!

im lyk rotting sia..

cant sleep last nite..

watched videos at youtube till 4 plus am..

anw anw..

im alone at home now..

my lil bro n sis not at home..

bro went out clubbing wif his frens..

waa,he grow up liao sia..

even i haven went clubbing b4 lorh..

de sis 4ever have party here n there larh..

wad welcome party, farewell party, birthday parties..

wth~

onli im the lonely soul..

sadded..

nth 2 do..

dad n mum working haven come home..

oh, dad working ot..

haiz!

will be alone 4 quite some time..

damn..

i hate this feeling of loneliness sia..

hate to be alone..

well, shall watch videos at youtube again..

kk, ciaoz~

meanwhile, 2day shall upoad a new pic..

hes my fave member from SHINHWA.. woohoo~

~Shin Hye Sung~

ends at 7:48 PM

Tuesday, April 03, 2007Y

Might be a long entry 2day..

btw..

some group pictures from OGL camp..

took e pics frm sahara's blog.. =)

group 6 woo~

the structure we built wif xiang ting's n shachin's help..

Next up, i wanna say..

life is juz so unfair..

since when it's fair??

haiz..

even some frens treat another unfair..

as in take for an example..

even parents treat some of their children unfair..

and its so full of ups and down..

i faced all these too..

but i do noe tt they stil love me no matter wad..

rite now, im happy wif wad i have..

to those hu feel neglected..

dun giv up yeah..?

someday, u'll find tt particular someone..

or tt particular group..

hu will love u all over again..

anw anw..

went 2 melissa's hous ytd..

ah gong was there as well..

mel cooked for us..

ok bah..

watched num 23 aftr tt at tiong..

tt show eh..

i dunno how 2 describe..

the story plot is very mysterious..

not bad a movie..

it always ends wif a shocking discovery de..

such as some person kena double personality..

lyk u killed someone n yet did not noe is u..

lyk u tot u kena haunted by a ghost actually u r e ghost..

the above are examples onli..

so standard wan..

actually i so wanna watch TMNT!!!

interested ppl ask me along yeah~

well well..

i juz realised i didnt upload my darling ya lun pic 4 quite some time liao..

so here goes..

ciaoz~

ends at 2:04 PM

Sunday, April 01, 2007Y

hey hey..

juz came back frm ogl camp..

woohoo~

im actually quite lazy 2 update much..

but here's basically wad we did..

1st day had some games at forum..

den at nite haunted trail..

we being yr 2s..

act as ghosts 2 scare the yr 1 ogls..

wahaha..

anw anw..

2nd day..

had water games..

went home at arnd 11pm plus..

coz we had meeting n aftr tt we played the murderer game..

it was so fun larh..

kk, i tired liao..

got chance den tell more bah..

gtg~

ends at 11:44 PM