have this sudden mixed feelings about my life..
at 1 point, i tel myself tt..
for now im not gg 2 find any job yet..
im gonna enjoy as much as i can b4 finding a real stable job..
will prob do it aftr the grad ceremony of nyp..
so in the meantime, where got temp part tym, i go work...
but now..
seeing how my peers n frens start 2 found a steady job..
or having a steady path in life..
i tink, im realli lag behind by alot..
so, im starting 2 feel scared le..
im starting 2 doubt whether wad i do is correct le..
and im starting 2 doubt my abilities and thinking..
izzit realli wrong 4 me to slack so long?
but its onli abt a month... mah...
haiz..
i dunno larh..
sometimes i cant understand my parents..
one moment, my mum told me tt she wont rush me..
afterall, she will not force me 2 faster settle down on a steady job which might not be wad i realli liked..
but nxt moment, she will complain tt i wasting my tym at home..
and when shes in a foul mood, she'll even question me when i gg find job..
den again..
i told her how i feel..
she consoled me tt, ok she will not force me..
but i tink she will say me again de lor..
in bad days..
having bad mood..
sometimes, a person's life is lyk a book..
different stages will fill in different chapters..
i might not noe wad the ending will be..
but i noe tt, i will try my best 2 make it similar the way i wanted..
except before that...
wad shud i write at this current chapter???
dear diary,
this is juz a random boring entry..
signing off~
-Charlene-
ends at 6:34 PM
