Relaxing ...

Wednesday, May 28, 2008Y

whew~

busy busy busy...

i tink...

im not a very good fren..

im not a good fren 2 my frens..

coz..

i noe, im so busy recently tt..

i tink ive been neglecting certain tings 2 be done..

and im so sorry for tt..

i dunno wad drives me 2 find so many work at a tym..

not as if i realli liked working..

and oh man! im feeling super miserable rite now..

coz i tink ive failed in many tings..

i realli have quite alot of tings 2 do..

but i cant fulfill each of them at a tym..

i realli realli wanna fulfil all the tings supposed 2 be done..

realli!!!

but time is so limited..

and i cant divide myself up..

causing my motivation 2 do anything at all 2 drop miserably..

haiz haiz..

hardly have tym 4 my parents..

when i come back home, so late le..

bathe den blog awhile..

while my parents go eat supper..

and by e tym they come back, i've have slept le..

den wake up nxt dy 2 work again..

even my wkends are packed..

so so cherish every moment i have wif my loved ones..

lucky ytd still did some crystal puzzle keychain wif mummy..

bought one green apple keychain for her..

and mine is red..

we fixed e tigy 2gthr last nite..

i feel tt..

no matter how tired i am..

i will always make tym for my family..

juz too bad mummy off 2ml..

but i gotta work..

haiz..

and shes feeling quite stressed out at work these days..

and i hardly have tym 2 chat wif her..

and again, i feel tt..

im not a good daughter..

haiz haiz..

caught this super sad lyrics frm a super sad song...

"Even that time...

was not enought..

A single smile...

The last bow...

I love you...

Even if i become weary frm that time..

Even if i become hurt from love...

Even that time..................

was a memory for me...

You're taking your last bow...

...

I love you...

Fly away...

Fly away love...

Fly away...

Fly away love...

The one true love of my life...

Goodbye..."

Labels: Even that time... was not enough... To my one true love of my life... goodbye...

ends at 11:52 PM

Sunday, May 25, 2008Y

took quite a few grad pics during my grad day...

have some pics wif xiao cai n y parents oso..

but i tink the lazy bugs have bite me...

im so lazy 2 upload the pics frm my digi cam...

plus im stil waiting for the other pics on Xue's cam...

anw anw..

since wanshi sent me some, shall upload these for now..

and as of May 23rd, 2008...

Im officially saying ''hi" to the workforce...

Ive got many dreams n ambitions..

my mind keep flashing thru scenes of wad i wanna do..

and there are so many tings i wanna do tt..

im afraid i cant fulfil them at all..

so many ambitions..

so little time..

and hardly any money..

can onli be stuck on this boring life of mine..

kept telling myself..

tt i will get 2 do the tings i love..

i will get 2 go out of Spore n explore..

its onli till then tt i will expand my horizons..

but but..

so many things around me is stopping me..

much as i wanna do the tings i wan..

circumstances tt i cant control...

is controlling me frm wad i wanna do...

everytym i keep tinking back..

even though ive successfully completed my tings..

yet there are still many tings i can do..

but i didnt..

and i juz 'blurr-ly' lead my 20 yrs of life..

wif almost 10 yrs of my life i cant realli recall coz was too young..

and i kept asking myself..

"what exactly do i wan to do in my life..?"

"what exactly i wan 2 accomplish?"

"what exactly do i love doing?"

"when can i realli start fulfilling the tings i so much wanted to?"

"when is the tym i will do smth tt im realli proud of?"

and the onli ting i tink i did successfully is tt..

ive graduated frm poly...

ive graduated frm sec...

ive at least got a PSLE...

and at least had a Diploma...

but wad can and am i gg 2 do wif these certs??

haiz..

ppl say..

when u start 2 tink of so many tings..

when u start 2 wonder here n there..

and when u sigh~

and when u suddenly feel so lost n feel lyk being left alone..

YOU ARE IN AN EMO STATE...

and yup, im emo-ing rite now..

hmm...

i tink i spent abt a quater of my life emo-ing sia..

haha..

haiz..

and its time lyk this tt..

i always tink of the negative traits of myself..

why?? why am i being such an idiot??

being so emo is wasting much of a person's tym..

and im still waiting for the 'right' tym..

when i can realli do smth i can realli reflect back n say:

"ive done something afterall!!!"
and goodness gracious..

im realli such an idiot..

keep losing tings..

handphones...

Mp3s...

wallets...

and losing mp3s is the worst..

coz, no music in my life is realli lyk hell for me...

sometimes...

i start 2 wonder..

when will i lose myself??

Im so afraid tt someday, sometime..

i'll lose smth realli dear n precious..

i hope by then...

i can stil manage 2 blog and reflect abt my dumbness...

well, then..

pics below..

a long-winded entry 2day...

tomorrow onwards, im gg 2 be real busy working..

at least 4 now, i still have work 2 do...

wanshi n me... (we've graduated =p)

frm left: wanshi, me, erm... wanshi's fren (i juz got 2 noe her tt day.. haha..)

till then...

bye~

Labels: lost in the world im living in... lost in the world of my own... lost... in a world without you... "Raining in my heart... i just cant say goodbye... cause i still love you..."

ends at 7:14 PM

Saturday, May 24, 2008Y

so tired...

ive been running a race..

a race against myself n time...

so busy recently..

so many tings 2 do..

never ending work schedules..

im feeling so shagged rite now..

i wanna take some tym off 2 go travel..

i REALLI wanna travel sia!!

to tink i had the chance now but...

for some reason i tink i wont be able 2 make it again..

haiz..

no life sia..

im feeling so miserable rite now.

i wanna take a gd rest..

and have someone do all the work 4 me..

coz im realli so damn tired..

tired of everything..

tired of... my life...

life these days is so hard 2 breathe..

the air in Singapore flow so fast..

plus the sucky weather..

CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER..

had my graduation 2day..

see so many familiar faces..

and tt familiar place..

i wanna be in such familiar positions..

doing those familiar things..

suddenly...

i miss studying..

suddenly...

i miss going school..

suddenly...

i feel lyk sleeping..

haha..

So, after e graduation ceremony..

took pictures here n there..

shall upload when i have tym..

and i met XIAO GIL- Gilbert..

tt familiar face during LTC and OGL camp...

missed all the fun camp days..

missed the orientation..

missed my freshies..

missed NYP!!!

though i expressed much happiness when school is finally over..

and no more studying life 4 me..

but when i saw so many students in NYP 2day..

i felt lyk crying my heart out..

i so wanna go back 2 where lecturers n tutors take care of our studies..

and not the pile of work wif the long working hours and migre pay,,

haiz haiz haiz..

yet anthr boring entry..

and im real tired le..

gg slp le..

tata~

ends at 1:34 AM

Friday, May 16, 2008Y

Its realli very sad...

im feeling so sad these days..

for those tt lost their lives or loved ones to the earthquake in mainland china..

the news are everywhere on tv..

in almost every news channel..

everytym i see a new discovery or new person saved..

or someone died..

i so feel lyk crying..

its realli very heart wrenching..

haiz..

salute to those live savers hu nvr giv up saving ppl..

and the govt of mainland is realli showing all their concern..

BUT BUT!!!

i tink ppl arnd the world are so engrossed in the earthquake tt..

they start 2 neglect the tsnami in Myanmma!!!

i watched the news juz now..

its alrdy 10 days past the 1st tsunami tt hit there..

but its reported tt in many parts of Myanmma..

dead bodies are everywhere..

not a single military or soul seen trying 2 save those survivals..

survivals are still somewhere out there!!

and the govt is rejecting help frm outside!!!

i cant believe this!

i seriously hope..

the govt quickly do smth abt it..

come on!!!

there are still survivals..

lives are still waiting 2 be helped..

i tink my lil heart cant take such news..

these 2 days everytym b4 i slp..

and when i close my eyes..

i keep tinking of the wreckage..

even though im not there,

i feel sad for those ppl..

and i seriously feel tt im realli fortunate..

if im a rich person..

i will try 2 giv all i can 2 help..

(haha, tink too much...)

anw,

i sincerely hope ppl will go help myanmma as well..

.......................................

whew~

work 2ml..

gtg~

gd nite..

Labels: Im realli lucky......

ends at 1:03 AM

Sunday, May 11, 2008Y

Out wif Jess again 2 orchard..

went isetan walk arnd n went 2 look 4 melissa at work...

haha, everytym went out wif jess..

end up buy alot of tings..

mostly..

F.O.O.D..

haha

we bought alot of food sia..

let me see..

a strawberry omlette/ crepe..

Strawberry creme sandwitch..

we r so in love wif strawberry!!!

we oso bought sushi,

a mango vanilla ice-cream,

3 mini mochi cheese bread,

and i sampled quite a number of fried seafood when we r walkin arnd..

haha...

but i did buy a packet back home..

i didnt juz sampled freely okay..

anw anw, the point is..

my appetite is getting weirder..

previously i had such a small appetite..

ate a lil full le..

but recently..

my appetite become bigger le..

siao liao siao liao...

gotta go drink lots of tea for easy digestion..

so can digest all my food faster..

haiz haiz..

anw anw..

im in quite an emo status the past few days..

fortunately i had shopping therapy wif jess 2day..

im realli wondering..

whether a person realli can change over time..

why will a person change?

why cant a person always be hu he/she is and was?

and sometimes it keeps me wondering..

can i always be hu i am in all circumstances?

izzit becoz changes take place all the time?

if i didnt change at all, will i still be able to cope wif the surrounding?

and when im worrying abt these things..

the same tings are not the same anymore, as time changes..

izzit becoz our surroundings keep changing..?

izzit becoz people are changing..?

izzit becoz everyone n everything is ever changing..?

or izzit becoz..

i never want 2 change at all..?

ends at 12:42 AM

Monday, May 05, 2008Y

went out wif jess 2day..

bought lots of stuff..

went tampines see see look look..

den shop around..

aftr tt went expo coz got lots of sales gg on..

den went metro expo sales find my mum..

2day her b'day celebration..

but something bad happened 2 me..

haiz..

sometimes its fate tt something will happen 2 you..

no matter how u wanna avoid..

it will still happen eventually..

and there is no 2nd chance..

sad sad sad...

aftr tt my whole day is like so miserable lor..

i went home n had problems wif my bladder..

keep gg 2 the toilet..

den aftr tt i feel sharp pain on my stomach..

mum says im too heaty....

so, its true tt when 1 bad ting happen...

a 2nd n 3rd will come..

but on the brighter note..

my mummy oso says, when u lose smth valuable, u'll gain smth valuable aftr tt..

i dunno if its true.. but i hope it will come true..

haiz..
a random boring entry 2day..

my entry could be more exciting de..

but im too sad 2 say anything le..

well then,

gotta go...

nite~

ends at 12:57 AM

Sunday, May 04, 2008Y

busy busy schedule...

for the past 2 wks or so..

is all abt work, work, work..

Mon-thurs school sales...

fri n sat sell kit kat at isetan scotts..

busy.. but meaningful..

especially when i see the figure in my atm increase..

haha..

and i muz thank meli alot ALOT!

coz both jobs is thru her de..

hehe..

and xiao cai gave me dbsk's 'T' album le!!!

yay~

and and.. Meli gave me dbsk 'O' concert book!!!

double yayness~

and aftr a busy work schedule, i finally have abt 4 days of rest til nxt fri..

im so gonna watch my dvd, listen 2 dbsk's new songs..

and read their concert book!!!

woohoo~

not 2 4get how happy i was when i went out wif shiting, Chinleng n WS..

miss those gals..

plus we had an enjoyable day out during labour day..

haha..

my hous warming party is cuming..

its on the 17th MAY!!!

i will confirm e details nearer the date..

oh man, im feeling all the love..

and im a happy happy girl..

2ml will meet dearie jess..

den will go find my mum..

den go back celebrate mummy's birthday..

hey hey...

Mummy is anthr yr older le..

4* le leh..

haha..

till then folks..

tata~

ends at 1:27 AM