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Saturday, August 09, 2008Y

i dunno wad 2 say...

y are 'we' humans, so good at pretending??

pretending tt we care...

pretending tt we wanna share...

pretendng to be nice...

pretending, pretending, pretending...

Human natural instinct??

i do not noe..

sometimes i hate myself..

hate myself for pretending tt im okay..

hate myself tt i can accept certain fact...

hate myself tt when i say "i can understand".

when actually i dun understand at all..

hate myself for being nice 2 ppl whom i can complain abt 2 other ppl..

then again, its not my style 2 scold ppl..

its not my style 2 embarrass or hurt ppl straight at their faces..

and i dun have the ability 2 argue back..

and im sure all my frens noe this..

and seriously,

after reading this blog entry..

and u start 2 hate me..

go ahead.. im fine..

since.. recently ive had the feeling of "not needed.."

its national day 2day..

tt explains my confessions..


haiz..

sometimes i feel lyk being a robot..

w/o feelings..

den i dun need 2 pretend..

den i wont hate myself for pretending..

den i will juz shut down when my circuit is out or something..

den i can come back again when someone else fix me up..

no sweat.. no pain..

and its not tt i dun have confidence in myself..

juz tt, when i realised tt im no different frm those i criticized b4..

i feel... horrible 2 a large extend...


Humans...

indeed...

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