Relaxing ...

Sunday, September 28, 2008Y

The time now is 4am in the wee hours...

and im stil quite awake..

siao liao..

dunno wad tym wil i wake up 2ml...

anw anw..

was watching youtube...

and i found my super new love...

thay are a bunch of cute lil korean boys..

tt each have their own talents..

and the oldest among them is onli 10 yrs old..

the youngest---6 yrs old...

and they are currently known as mini dbsk!!!!!!

SUPER DUPER CUTE...

they are picked out of 300 lil children hu went 4 e audition..

and the final 5 are out..

each represent n look lyk their adult DBSK member..

I super LOVE mini Xiah and mini Jaejoong!!!

they realli resemble their seniors sia..

and they have alrdy gained popularity n have fans too..

they even went 4 fansmeeting..

kaoz~

and mini Jae is sooooooooo good at dancing..

hes got such a charismatic character...

and hes so cool..

wads best is, he even speaks wif an accent juz lyk JAEJOONG!!!

and mini u-know is known as the mini dbsk leader...

hes soooooooooooo brotherly n since the oldest..

he realli took care of his other members so well..

and hes realli got the leader style juz lyk DBSK's Leader- U-know!!!!!

and im amazed they are alrdy participating events in SM entertainment!!!

so cool sia..

juz a pity tt aftr some tym mini Jae left SM entertainment and joined JYP entertainment instead...

but stil..

i hope 2 have such talented kids when i grow up too..

haha..

so much for my new found excitment!!!!

and, i tink i better go get some slp le..

else will have panda eyes 2ml de..

gtg~

tata~

ends at 4:06 AM

Thursday, September 25, 2008Y

I cant ask for time 2 revert back...

coz time waits for no man...

the onli possible ting tt us, humans, can do is...

to keep on trying n moving 4ward..

sometimes u have 2 leave certain tings behind..

but those tt are left behind..

tend 2 be the most memorable..

coz... those arent tings tt are juz simply left behind n 4got..

but are the ones tt formed an important part in our lives...

called... memories...

We cant turn time back n go back 2 our elementary sch days..

we cant go back 2 our (mostly memorable) secondary sch days..

we cant go back 2 our poly days n be drowned by projs n exams..

we cant go back 2 a broken relationship/frenship n make tings rite again(even though we wish we could..)

so, we had 2 put all these behind n keep moving 4ward..

and let these tings formed our most important n unforgettable memories..

something, tt we can keep in our hearts n our minds even if we are moving 4ward..

tt will never be left n forgotten...

So, make urself happy by telling urself tt its OKAY, if uve done wrong or could have done better...

(but dun do it often.... coz its not too good 4 u too though..)

got this slight advice frm someone.. and my mum as well..

coz my mum 'provoked' me a few days back by calling me useless..

these words she said made me feel super uber demoralised..

and made me start 2 tink deeply tt im realli useless..

and then the nxt day, she told me shes juz kidding...

and continued sayin: "if u're useless, den how come u can still graduate frm psle-diploma?"

even though this made me feel better, but her words of "ure useless.." is still engraved deep in my mind..

maybe shes juz lyk me..

talks wadever tt comes in our mind..

and is the kind of person who speaks how we feel straightly..

and unknowingly hurt others..

even though we dun mean 2 do so at all..

well,

im not sure if this is considered an enlightening post 2 me..

coz im not sure if this positiveness will last..

hu noes, i'll revert back 2 my emo state again, soon...

for now...

think again, readers...

ciaoz~

b4 i realli go off...

Heres an announcement...

"er hem... DBSK 4TH ALBUM IS OUT!!!!!"

DBSK FANS!!! DO SUPPORT THEM!!!!!

I cant wait 2 lay my hands on on 1....

bye~

Labels: 1000 things to do before you die~

ends at 11:30 PM

Tuesday, September 23, 2008Y

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

my mum has found a new part tym 4 me..
shes asking me 2 take it up aftr my current admin job ends at this mth end...
and 2 think tt ive stated clearly tt i dunwan 2 b forced 2 work jobs tt i dun lyk..
but den...
the pay wise..
is super attractive larh...
9 bucks per hour leh...
u tel me!!!
haiz...
and working hours is frm 6pm-11pm..
which i dunhav 2 wake up so early the nxt day..
hmm....hmm....hmm.....
how how how????
must make up my mind fast...
putting this aside...
im stil waiting 4 the letter 2 arrive...
the letter of confirmation...
am anticipating it so much...

oh well..
till then, i juz have 2 slog real hard at work for now...
nid money!!!!!!
gotta save hard!!!
till then, chaoz~

Labels: Memory may fade... but Memories dont.....

ends at 11:57 PM

Friday, September 19, 2008Y

juz let me vent my frustrations for a while...

here goes...

i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this

i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this...

whew~

for the benefit of letting off much steam, dun copy n paste...

try typing it out word by word...

i typed one word aftr the other so as 2 fully let off my steam tts boiling inside me..

i wanna make a difference...

i wanna make a change...

as of 2ml...

i wanna b a brand new me...

but i have 2 finish wadever im doin til the end of dis month first..

start November...

i wanna DO THE THINGS I WAN!!!!!

tt is 2 say...

I DUN CARE IF WHICH AUNTY/ WHICH UNCLE'S FREN NID A PART-TIMER...

i wanna do the kind of part tym job tt i prefer n like okay???!!!

for goodness sake..

for the past few months...

ive been living my life of somebody's..

im not living it for my ownself..

which is why..

studying in SIM is my own choice...

and i noe i wont regret...

and im so thankful tt my parents finally let me in 4 once..

2 decide on my future n stop forcing me 2 do

wadever part tym job offers tt comes in the way

juz so i can save some money...

and im so gonna go on a diet!!!

coz months in office job= gain extra 2-3 kgs...

well well...

ive gotta go for now...

one more vid 2 watch b4 i go slp 4 work the nxt day!!!

tata~

ends at 1:07 AM

Monday, September 08, 2008Y

Is it dangerous?

didnt go 2 work 2day, took mc...

slept til arnd 3plus in e afternoon...

went 2 see e doc wif my dad arnd 6plus..

and all e way til now...

i didnt eat anything..

and i dun feel hungry at all..

or shud i say...

i dun feel lyk eating at all?

im not sure of the reason but, i dun have the urge 2 eat..

even for ytd...

went out 2 eat lunch at Ajisen...

but i didt finish my bowl of ramen..

den aftr tt, i didnt eat e whole day le..

im not sure if its coz i dun have the mood 2 eat at all..

or juz simply not hungry..

wadever it is..

i tink im having problems having proper meals..

yes, i noe its unhealthy...

but its not as if i want rite...

haiz...

i dare not ask for more anymore..

charlene= no life, no ambition, no goals, no dream...

keep wondering...

wad is life lyk after death??

wad is death itself lyk??

................................................................................

was reading a fren's blog about frenships being so vulnerable..

and i do agree tt, even if its a simple gesture can mean alot..

by showing 'appreciation' 2 ppl around you..

and forgiv those tt choose not 2 involve u...

u still have others...

so gal...

u stil have me=)

tata~

ends at 9:21 PM

Thursday, September 04, 2008Y

I must say im realli hardworking...

coz last fri was my last day at UOB..

and i realli miss my colleagues alot alot larh!!!

they were so sweet 2 giv me a surprise when nearing end of work...

to tink tt they didnt say anything 2 me at all e whole day until when ending work tt tym...

they gave me a super nice card...

but i juz foundout where it is bought when i went shoping wif jess juz now..

opps...

vey lazy 2 upload the pics though...

will do it when i feel lyk it bah...

im realli lucky 2 have met such nice colleagues except 'HER'..

(those of u hu read my blog, ive once blog abt her.. but i deleted tt enty le..)

anw anw, back 2 me saying im hardworking..

the point is...

after my last day of work le,

i immediately work anthr part tym on Mon...

so, as of 2ml, its my 1st wk of my new temp job le..

no rest, no slack...

juz hardcore working...

will be gg 4 a briefing nxt wk on a course offered at SIM...

if interested, i will be gg 4 it...

im so shagged frm all the working..

i tink im deprived of my slacking tym sia...

and my new workplace is so near yet so far frm my old working place..

if im lucky, i might bump into my ex colleagues...

haiz...

im facing the computer more than i face my own mum's face sia...

............................................................

Recently, ive have this thought in my mind...

there are some people hu are born 2 let ppl envy..

and there are some others born 2 envy others..

Charlene= born 2 envy others...

not tt im being pessimistic..

but i tink, im someone hu cant stand certain tings easily...

and when i do... its more than juz pure envy...

more lyk... jealous?

humans indeed...

will ppl even be jealous of me?

nvr in my whole life did ppl comment tt they envy me..

onli me going around commenting how i "envy"(am jealous) of someone..

hahaha... funny... but true...

hmm... maybe my tym juz hasnt come yet??

or maybe ppl do envy me juz tt im unaware??

see, even i go around telling ppl how i envy my own siblings..

and then every nite when chit chatting wif me sis,

she told me hu n hu lyk her... hu n hu gave her tings...

and hu n hu asked for her no...

lyk.. WTH~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

so pissed...

so my pure envy turns 2 pure jealousy...

its difficult 2 not be sad you know..

upon hearing tings lyk tt..

and my sis can stil be frustrated over tt person hu wants 2 be her fren,

or tt person hu wants her no...

and.. and...

WADEVER!!!!!

whew~

life is nvr fair 2 any particular someone..

am i realli tt lousy???

haiz...

y does some ppl hu behaves so bitchy can be so popular?

y does my sis hu has such foul temper n wicked mouth be so in favor???

y does some ppl hu dun lyk talking(being cool) be the centre of attraction??

y does some ppl hu can make frens so easily have no boyfren/galfren at all???

See...

Life is...

never fair 2 any particular someone!!!!

kk, shall stop here..

the more i type, the more i dun wanna stop,

the more angry i become.......................

think, people; is life fair 2 u???

u reap wad u sow??

think again...

ends at 9:37 PM