I think...
im a freaking great liar...
Haha, serious!!
coz whenever i said i wanna do something,
it didnt happen; most of the time.
Funny how many times i wanna do something and told my sis excitedly.
And then, it never did occur afterall..
Until recently, talking to her can really be as sulky as ever,
coz she just gave me the "yea yea whatever..." look..
it made me felt irritated at first..
But come to think of it,
its my own fault..
So much so for the talk.
Nonetheless, nobody can stop me from talking whatever i want.
So, ive made a resolution.
That is, i will try to talk less in the near future.
And i shall only talk it out loud when that certain ting really did occur.
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Next up,
I suddenly have this thought in mind.
Whenever i found myself being 'unappreciated' by certain people,
it really demoralize me tons.
Nothing can be as demoralizing as seeing how your old buds seemed to erase you totally from their current life.
But then again,
as i browsed around,
I realised that there are stil people out there,
who kept my name with them silently..
As precious as they are to me,
that made me felt much appreciated afterall.
And come to think of it,
Some of which are the ones that i seldom contact back too..
This made me felt real guilty about it.
I met Julie at Vivo today..
and to tell the truth, I felt really happy..
I was back facing her as she was at the ATM,
Her hand came up and messed my hair..
At that point of time,
i started to miss the times where i had my friends with me in school.
Those familiar faces that are no longer around me..
Julie's gesture made me felt a sense of familiarity..
and it made my throat turned real sour come to think of it..
These friends, not contacted since long,
are there, even though silently..
Even though they did not shout it out loud to me,
that they did not forget me..
they remembered me still, quietly..
It is really heart warming,
to know that when a person drift away from you,
there are still others around..
And im not always alone.
Because, when fate brought you to someone new,
it wont go away to the point of being totally forgotten..
And when i look back the tracks,
there are so many footprints left behind,
not only mine...
These existence are non-erasable..
I hope..
I really do hope to rekindle those feelings..
Just a pity;
we cant turn back time at all...
so long for now~
bye~

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