Relaxing ...

Monday, June 22, 2009Y

Been staring at the white blank box for so long..
wondering wad to write for this entry.
but after staring at the screen for almost 10 minutes,
i stil cant find something to blog about.
Not that there's nothing to update about,
but i juz cant think of where to start.
Something unpleasant happened ytd..
i was in a pissed off state... but then it became guilt-striken after tt...
haiz.
I tink im hard to comprehend.
if only i can judge myself,
and see what really lies deep inside me..
............................................................................................
Life has its unpredictable twists and turns.
We have many choices in life...
The choices you make today will affect the life of tomorrow....
ciaoz~

ends at 9:26 PM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009Y

well...
i had a couple of set backs recently...
sometimes i wish there are pills for 'erasing' bad memories..
and how i wish there are pills for 'sweet dreams'.
So that everything good is kept in my brain and anything bad is not in there...
then i will only be left wif good memories and positive thoughts.
but sometimes...
what i really need is a good program to watch perhaps?
a comedy?
a pat on my shoulder?
a hug frm my mum?
a nice piece of music?
or....
an entire day spent suju-ing???
haha...
actually, i wanna make my confession here.....
i was so into super junior that... that....
i was stuck on my lappy frm about 9 plus pm to 5am ytd!
and i feel so sorry for the electricity bills that my mum is gonna pay...
i feel so so guilt stricken that she has to pay for my leisure n entertainment.
haiz.
but, youtube is lyk a drug to me.
Once i start, its hard to stop.
so so, ive been on my lappy for nearing 5 hours now and i tink i shall stop.
............................................................................................
ive juz discovered something~
the word 'H.A.T.E' is really too big a word to use.
when someone uses that word onto me..
it made me felt real uneasy..
so unless you really loved something b4 or someone,
and really got hurt frm it, 'hate' doesnt come that easily.
Coz if you really hate someone or smth, u wont easily forgive n forget.
And if after some time, you realised that you have no feelings for 'it' anymore,
that, my friend... is not hate... juz purely forgotten...
im not sure if u understand my meaning.
but im saying rite in this entry is coz, i cant stand that word "hate".
And im feeling a bit remorseful rite now for ever using that word.
haiz...
gtg now~
that's all folks~
(P.s ive found my 2nd fave member in super junior!!!! He is also known as Mr charming in the group=p)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Choi Siwon~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ends at 11:52 PM

Wednesday, June 10, 2009Y

i tink i am always being complacent when im good at something...
haiz....
that's me...
that's who i am..
that's what i am...
that's how i behave...
which is why at times i juz cant even stand myself...
which is why at times i really dislike myself..
for not putting myself in others shoes often..
too complacent???
which is why...
i did so freaking badly for my ER paper...
im feeling shitty rite now..
real shitty...
feel lyk crying..
but my tear duct juz wouldnt let any tear fall...
too shocked?
most probably...
haiz..
must go n reflect myself....
see how horrible a person i am... and always is...
Sadded...
dun feel lyk talking...
=(

ends at 12:34 AM

Friday, June 05, 2009Y

Do you want love?
And i want love...
Memories are beautiful,
i'll never let you go.
One love...one love...
though memories are beautiful,
i don't ever wanna say goodbye....

KYA............................
been hardcore suju-ing non-stop for several hours le..
feel so guilty for using the com for so long.
waste electricity....
and i can go w/o food juz plain suju-ing...
fyi, suju is 'super junior' in short.
and that means ive been you-tubing their music videos simultaneously...
and now tt i started blogging,
a moment's pause frm suju-ing,
I realised im feeling hungry le...
haha...................................................................
oh my gosh,
super junior is literally the biggest n largest boy band in the world.
13 members in whole,
wif 4 mini sub-grps w/in the band.
and being the largest group ever,
can you imagine how large their influence are to me??
haha...
i totally forgo my DBSK..
and i stil feel so guilty about it!
but then, i juz cant get enough of super junior now!
LOL~
i know i know,
i change hearts real fast.
so maybe tts why im stil unattached now.
(hard facts... i do have a change of heart easily..)
but ive managed to get miss Mok Jessie to fell in love wif their variety program..
and then start getting to know the group..
*proud*
cant believe they have really very nice songs...
all along i thought only DBSK's songs the best..
but i was so very wrong.
suju's songs are a killer, and its killing me....
so hooked onto them rite now tt im listening to my music player continuously.
any vehicle on the road, i might juz jolly well missed hearing it coming n then..
BOOM........... Crash............*#*&%$%!@#*$@#!
choy~ touch wood...
haiz, well well, i cant tahan any minute w/o suju le..
my vid should load finish by now.
ciaoz~
SPREAD THE LOVE ppl...
saranghaeyo....

ends at 10:16 PM

new blogskin!!!!!!!!!
as usual, my sis helped me change de.
all i had to do is juz choose the skin i like n the icons i wan.
then the rest is up to my sis to 自由发挥了...
haha~
such girly blogskin, not too bad afterall...
i juz need a breather from the past..
this juz helps me to move onto the nxt phase.

exam results out...
but only 2 of the modules are known.
the other 2 is withheld, coz god noes why the Australian side had a strike going on.
what an unfortunate timing...
hope the other 2 results will be as pleasant as the 2 at current also~
woohoo~
ciaoz!
p.s tags are welcome=p

ends at 12:04 AM

Wednesday, June 03, 2009Y

The fireworks at HK disneyland!!!!

i was seriously touched when watching the fireworks blooming in the sky....

thx to hwee ting for this video!!!!

haha... dun always say ur camera LQ la... its still very useful in capturing tings mah..

at least it came in pretty useful while my camera batt died on me... tsk~

haha...

i tink its the disnelyand that made my trip worthwhile.... lol~

ciaoz~

ends at 8:52 PM

Tuesday, June 02, 2009Y

i was excluded from their lives before...

so, i guess i dun have to feel regretful in excluding them frm mine as well...

an awful thing to say,

but i learnt the lesson a really hard way.

i am a little bit caught in the middle..

in the middle of their lives and mine....

i have to face it myself,

but im not gonna back down...

I still have people to back me up,

and i believe i can be there for them as well...

This...... is life...

be truthful to your life....

ends at 6:42 PM