well... i had a couple of set backs recently... sometimes i wish there are pills for 'erasing' bad memories.. and how i wish there are pills for 'sweet dreams'. So that everything good is kept in my brain and anything bad is not in there... then i will only be left wif good memories and positive thoughts. but sometimes... what i really need is a good program to watch perhaps? a comedy? a pat on my shoulder? a hug frm my mum? a nice piece of music? or.... an entire day spent suju-ing??? haha... actually, i wanna make my confession here..... i was so into super junior that... that.... i was stuck on my lappy frm about 9 plus pm to 5am ytd! and i feel so sorry for the electricity bills that my mum is gonna pay... i feel so so guilt stricken that she has to pay for my leisure n entertainment. haiz. but, youtube is lyk a drug to me. Once i start, its hard to stop. so so, ive been on my lappy for nearing 5 hours now and i tink i shall stop. ............................................................................................ ive juz discovered something~ the word 'H.A.T.E' is really too big a word to use. when someone uses that word onto me.. it made me felt real uneasy.. so unless you really loved something b4 or someone, and really got hurt frm it, 'hate' doesnt come that easily. Coz if you really hate someone or smth, u wont easily forgive n forget. And if after some time, you realised that you have no feelings for 'it' anymore, that, my friend... is not hate... juz purely forgotten... im not sure if u understand my meaning. but im saying rite in this entry is coz, i cant stand that word "hate". And im feeling a bit remorseful rite now for ever using that word. haiz... gtg now~ that's all folks~ (P.s ive found my 2nd fave member in super junior!!!! He is also known as Mr charming in the group=p)
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