Sometimes.... i juz wanna run away from the unreasonable home... sometimes..... the ones that disappoint me the most... are the ones that love me the most... sometimes..... the ones that make me angry are the ones that i care for the most.... sometimes.... the ones that make me feel real stress out and irritated.... are the ones that i supposedly love the most... sometimes the ones that make me feel sad are the ones that supposedly care for me the most... and sometimes.... the warmest place on earth can be the coldest place to be at home... The ones..... are non other than... my own family members... and the shitty feelings happen when... ur siblings don't show u respect... ur parents always tell u how bad they are doing... and u cant do anything to help at all. ur mum always have negative thinking and much as u tell her dont say such things, she stil do... ur brother who always flare up so easily disregarding u as an elder sibling and there's no way he listens to u... ur sister keeps making fun of u.... ur home.. needs ur help coz ure the eldest! u wanna do things but have to always think of ur home 1st.. and becoz ure the eldest... everything good shud be left for the younger ones... and becoz ure the eldest, ure obliged to help at home.. and becoz ure the eldest, u shud be the nxt breadwinner and dont disturb ur younger siblings who are still schooling... and becoz ure the eldest, u shud always give in 1st even in arguments... and becoz ure the eldest, u shudnt worry ur parents... CRAP ALL THE BEING ELDEST LARH!!!!!!!! I DONT WANNA BE THE ELDEST!!!!!!!! but like i can choose.............................. :(
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